COLLINS, MADELINE JENNA

[MADELINE J. COLLINS]

[atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width:450px; padding:10px;] ignore this here [atrb=border,0,true][atrb=style, width:200px; height:300px; overflow:auto; vertical-align:top;] madeline j. collins, 19, local, bartender, tay jardine , everyone always says i'm heartless, but that's entirely untrue. i can be a huge bitch, but only when if eel like i have to. and my sense of humor isn't the nicest, but i'm not that awful. i'm sarcastic. i can be nice and sweet though. i'm nice to presley, and i'm nice to my friends. of course, i'm nicer to pres than anyone. i love my sister. but if you give me an attitude, or bitch out someone i'm close to, i'm not gonna be nice to you. you don't deserve it. and i can't help it if i don't trust people. i mean, it's not my fault i'm cynical. this one time, junior year, i had this huge crush on one of my friends. she was really cute and nice, and i just thought she was perfect. and she would flirt with me, so i figured we were a match made in heaven. we actually went on a date, and i thought it went really well. we weren't official, but we did things couples did. we cuddled on the couch and watched tv, went to the movies and made out in the back row, all that stuff. it didn't take long before we got to the point where we wanted more. i don't think sex is anything special to wait for, and she wanted it, so i went for it. i thought it brought us closer, and i knew she'd want to be official. but no. instead, she basically made me out to be some freak who almost forced it on her. she admitted she wanted it a little, but made it like i was some kind of sexual deviant or something. the girl embarrassed me big time, and totally fucking lied to everyone. i trusted her a lot too. so now i'm just really distrustful, and i'd rather meaningless, no strings attached things than anything serious. i mean, i do want a relationship, but i don't trust people. my life isn't bad though. i have my friends, i have a nice job as a bartender. there's nothing to complain about. me and my friends have a band too, and we play shows around chicago. it's pretty awesome. sure, i could be going to college and making it so i have something to fall back on if my band doesn't work, but i just want to have fun. i was never good at school anyway, so why put myself through that? bartenders make good money anyway. i'll be fine for the rest of my life no matter what happens. emmy -- 17 -- idk a million years -- i want a calzone.